Bringing It to an End

Ha haa, in just a few hours it will be 2011. Wow! I'm so ready for this. I have so many thing waiting for me in the new year I can't wait to get started.

I got so far past the things that have happened in the past and I refuse to let it take over my future. I know a few people have already cashed in on me when I plead with them to hold on. Well I'm telling you now you should have held on.

Lil'mamma is on her way and I would have shared it with you. Therefore the one thing that you didn't learn about me is that I am not a selfish person.

With that said, that was most of my problem in the past... I gave and I gave 'til I had nothing else to give and looking for help and the same hand-out that I gave others... Never got it form those whom I had faith
But didn't have faith in me.

So when you see me in the dream I so dearly told you about and you realize you could have been standing next to me or known that you could have been close to me. But you know what...Forget about me. Turn your head in disbelife and say damn!

O and by the way I forgive you ... and Happy New Year.

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Wack

In the search of where I want to be everyday, I found myself making list of the Pros and Cons of my daily contacts over the past few years. Some were easy to get rid of but most took some time and I felt it was necessary in order to move freely into this new year that is upon us.

I came across this one contact that seemed to be in my best intrest, so I approached them. We talked good for days and hours on each of those events. Then.... all the sudden, slience...

So I say "what's the problem" and they respond with distance between us. So I'm like, that can all be worked out in due time, lets work on that basics that most seem to forget about and make this strong and everlasting....because I'm willing if you are. They say ok.

We talk good, but once again, slience enters between us (for days) and I say once again "what's the problem" in addition to "I thought we were getting somewhere"? They say, "I'm trying to enjoy my day off"....

OK... wow. I didn't mean to bother you on your day off. I didn't think I fell into the same list as your "wack ass" job. I will leave you alone.

My Thoughts:
I'm not saying anything extra, but just showing you how it is. As I said before I thought it was understood that we were going to work on something more for us. But I guess not and I well move on because it is very apparent that you don't want me the same way I want you. Plus we are both grown and I'm a big girl. And I'm beautiful and I chose you... you didn't pick me... ahhh. I'm good.

Moving on...

I think there is one more person a need to cross off this list but I just have to wait and see.... but you know one thing this list has shown me is that it so amazing how people only think of themselves.

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Merry Christmas

Let's not forget the real reason why we celebrate this day. It's not for the gift other bring us, but the birth of our God! With everything that goes on in our life before we even reach this day, it so easy to lose focus and get caught up on the wrong things.

Take this Christmas Eve to reflect to the the days prior to this and realize the blessings that here today. They are there you just have to acknowledge them.

Merry Christmas :)

Completing 2010

I don't know about many of you but it feels like this year went by quick! It's amazing the things that many of us have lived though this year. But let's give ourselves a pat on the back because we MADE IT! The end of the year is near and the most stressful portion of it is all most over. Yes, I am talking about Christmas.

I am a public service worker and I have had the pleasure of talking to many people of the past year. Though these conversations I have realized that many people of all colors and values have had it rough this year. So I wanted to take this time to focus on that fact that it's over. Let's let our trouble of this year stay in 2010 and visualize the blessing of the new year coming.

One thing that we seem to forget as get older is how to get back up. You fall, you get back up, brush yourself off and get back to what you are doing. Simple lesson of life we just magically forget. Why is that?

Maybe we focus too much on what made us fall. Or maybe we fall a little harder then any other time and we have a longer recovery time then before. But what is it in those times that keeps us from regaining our position?

Nothing but yourself.

So here and now, get over it and move on. If it was meant for us to look back, we would know exactly what our asses look like. But we face forward in order to see the beauty before us. 2010 is over, so let's continue to move forward.






Think eggs, think nightmares.

I Know a Certain Day is Coming

I know many people will ignore this because really it has nothing to do with them. But even the people it does have somthing to do with; will ignore it as well. Just like everything else that comes out me mouth.

I tell you now that I know a day is coming that we will all dread. And it is coming sooner then we thinking.

It is time to let go and forgive all our disagreements and live in the moment because if we don't, soon there will be no more time to think about what was said wrong.

Refer back to my blog titled "Go Ahead and Kill Yourself".

**Get over it and forgive**

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